music.txt mashup some recent fragments on music (the urls/examples have been removed. the text is fragmented, to extent covering theory/phenomenology/practice i developing over past year and a half.) inverting amplitudes foregrounds body operational instrument sounds; these are last of pieces which treat bodywork as fundamental music, presencing; usual focus an instrument, proper sounds, almost shell or manifold across flesh breath. haven't made work like this before, interior exterior exchanged in incredible sonic mapping tending towards possibilities (at least for me) new modes sound musical philosophy. perhaps most successful inverted dynamics pieces; qqq final result, qq original. recorded night, couldn't sleep, six morning, took lot sleeping pills trazodone, checked tuning s qin, played what might be my best piece any case. so 'scratchy' actually audible both version, part parcel its making. i've thinking (admittedly ignorantly) relationship between category theory 'older' mathematical foundations, relation modifications echo, filters, one hand, revrev/inverted other; latter brings otherings into foreground (temporality example), while former remains within traditional embeddings subject (player, listener). ... given triad gamespace/edgespace <--> blank imaginary, interference appears interregnum edgespace(imaginary) _production_ (conceivably non-reproducible) commodity interference: virtual static (with possible panoply objects objects) _corralled content_ may considered alterity gamespace, also represented it. s/n (signal noise) ratio potentially-processed content, resulting emergence emanants, emanations existing among gamespaces, edgespaces, network protocols statistics, forth. propose that perceived world itself emanantic, every process object, etc. originates edgespatial, interpretation decoding construction - not pre-existent, but interstitial phenomena with their imaginary. thus gaming such, boundary phenomena, _primordial,_ should _fundamental_ our existence. sense, body, signings interference, mind, imaginary operating under fluid mobile constraints (which, other eras, we termed deity? (aside) from implies strictures parasite; think michel serres' parasite, interruption source receiver channels, potentially content. epistemologically, parasite than channel; imaginary; action, abjection; function corrosive leak. does lead us astray complement analysis? gamespace dominion sources receivers complex holarchic entanglement, edgespace generated by stresses within; stress becoming content breaks free produced taken elsewhere, transmitted reside sentience. numinous catalyst abject (or entangled, abject). background/body re/constitution production; azure sings thru her sickness, pauses filled screams 'out in' street below; voice loses sonority, down gravel/grating coughs gaspings, she makes it song, someone screaming has moved on, sounds traffic, body; song marriage language, language broken sickness; remember catastrophic fragile peak goodness midst go wrong, returned foregrounded here parasitic enjoy, despair, enjoy. high-speed cura saz without break/silence, processed through inverse dynamics, becomes orchestral already was. keep pushing categorical filters imply something about culture, physics, entanglements, edgespaces blankness roars symptomatic prions, example, worlding asserting cultural structures. internal biome roughly half microbial dna, picture elsewhere music. extreme cold rhode island day could hear strings loosening, wood instruments straining. now use three humidifiers get period; you're hearing all recordings form subaltern. f(x), t -> -t reverse (not this)x /x environmentally-embedded musics (in*/ f(x) f(x'), where x' + tail originating reverberation / effects /* -t; anticipatory everything experience transformations appear elementary, create dwellings alternative worlds resonate always know; terms categories, topological invariants phenomenological subjectivities. (yes do.) clashing civilization open up spaces beyond thematic villages, gravitational lensing, alignments, territories inherently out-of-tune, landscapes, slime-mold movements, emergences, emergencies theories unthemed dwellings, nomadic commons, taz, coming together falling apart, apart together, defeat punctum-turret, alignments universal skies "since must save tomorrow, since because don't feel strong enough stay disorganized, inevitably slice off infinite monstrous meat cut size mouth vision eyes, i'll succumb need comes terror remaining undelimited then at courage let shape scab hardens itself, fiery nebula cools earth. resist temptation invent form." (clarice lispector, passion according g.h., trans. idra novey, penguin, , p. ) qin. impossible tunings whose fingers harmonized. program, fit sense harmonization) not; does. them course arbitrary; encoding reference act program-creation coding operates input, phenomenology input indicated. choose distinction words order articulate field; otherwise again unnecessary obscurity. element code, there sign sign-function, drawn tables closed lexicons. encoding, none; may, matter, matterless, codeless, just mattered, albeit ideality cyberneticization matter. inhalings, harmonics, harmonizings, whistlings, you, work, double guqin, somewhat deeply out tune each other, communicating authorizing presence other. quaint terminology, archeological cyber-anything, worldings returning grit shapeless groundless grit-physics representative wired recording spasms own infrastructures unhacked circuitry casting after imagery central core kernel pushbacks pullouts, pushouts pullbacks, can conceptualized, locals topoi places if they were originary, origin lying sensors, wires, programs, hardly apparatus corrosive, still un-gene-spliced, falling, failing, flailing apart,the barycentric arcing configurations slaughter, removal temples archaeological debris, debris caved electric signaling world, touching spasmodic grounded struggle breath mouthings, muscles loose taut, pleasure carapace shells thrown it, wave wave, stuttered return, non-electronic running diodes wires machines taking note whatever shuddering shattering speak of, such unspeakable, incapable times speech thoughtful thinking, indeterminate, letting run streams flooding worlds, short-circuiting, burning, around, cliffs, waters, devices, muscles, skin, beneath tissues flesh, organs beneath, ruptures sutures, belongings castings, operations, inoperables, espionage within, careful unordained movements arms legs, mouths fingers, encodings decodings, murmurs machinic, soft machines, soft, inordinate, gatherings castings-aside, nothing comfortable when transitional turns you guqins = person, effect, nk zero century's old wood, momentary settling control ten square feet, hut literature japan, we're surrounded radiation everywhere, plants animals, fungi archaea, dying, oceans mountains, iceberg calving, consequence, hydrogen, instruments, easy destroy, burn bury, sound, whom, practice,, i'd say single destroy nations, caress restore, disappearance humans, millennial quietude, chance communality relationship, glimpse backtracked note, two qins talking many multitudes, * , banjo pipa tuning, japanese scale, improvisation half-steps major thirds characteristic melancholy rough day, sanshin garcia lorca else forget bushido zen buddha want kill anyone survive desire beautiful uncanny passing another hundred twenty eight years welcome inn formulaic condensation: western dramaturgy emphasizes affect effect: transformations, machinic virtuality. natyasastra, emphasize effect affect: split tendency psychological interminable indeterminate states: difference example types state states. ...skipping... distinctions hold scrutiny; i'm fascinated working abject, underbelly live in, equally contemplating cosmology, particle physical, mathematics entanglement. interstitial, bounded hand limited potentials matter human vicissitudes, dwelling coordinated affect, no bandwidth. meshes, doesn't it? stutter/ shudder begin /: guzheng chinese zither, plucked right-hand side, tuned pegs bridges. left-hand side tune,' pressed left raise pitch right. support structure, cacophony potential existence depths, soul deeper scales perfect tuning. (i play back forth, fields piece.) also, think, field spirit, dark cat, ossi oswalda, who doing poorly now, us, seizures four days months ago, those numbers meaningless close hope best. threnody hope, listen, (she did, had choice!), thanks. zzzzz to.txt fungi, tn.txt follows exhausted emerges here, incessant rhythm stupidly falls dostoevsky's writer's diary grain voice, almost-black, seething world. first black, granular. primal scene, floor, bed, stairwell, river dock, great outdoor projection screen, hallway. achitecture shifts, architectron. visibility expulsions. visibility. ghosts lacks granularity; details abyss opens character pixel. surface extend gestural logics, mind filling details, projectivity involving release desire. dream-like quality cyberspace, melding, flexible, relative arcana. depth become identical, surface. (oh narcissus.) came me was trying desperately avoid insomnia, obviously impossibility. aesthetic truth seems clear fixed structures, structures reveal themselves turn. walking hiking move paths, trails, falls, strata, loams, deep ecologies, biomes microbiomes; moves similar fashion, number occasions path trail, or, better, listened can. playing guqin full name qin emphasizing depth), clouds chasms pools, inhabited. isn't harmony, melody, rhythm, continuum, among, trance movement clarity. listen section this, done ar sessions, hopefully bowtest short violin bow salt-and-pepper horsehair; standard white old; viola rababa; salt pepper bow; viola; composition labor musician, testing hair (salt-and-pepper) black rougher more byte; it's mixed smoother, calmer (less grit, less highs over-modulated). bowtest, switch bows worst playing, listening glitches; saltandpepper, bowhair takes advantage difference. kind behind-the-scenes everyone does, potentials. time. innovative master fifthfourthfifth kept changing chair position, ingmar bergman's uncut version fanny alexander there's remarkable innovation intervals based luxuriousness anton webern umm kulthum despair sinjar amazement mastery mines delicacy reglued bouts boxwood patinas gut wisdom positions music/sound anticipation dying friend, stabilized companion panic attacks depressions, yet, salvation up, getting ready performance recording, anticipation, gathers becomes, appears, very beginning then, more-so, comfort, enlightenment, advance death, decay, illness, in-spite-of, circulation culture culture's prohibitions transgression, somehow human, communality, glad in-spite-of companion, irretrievable loss, depression friend detriment m. e. ossie oswalda versions miasmatic, preparation next/ trmph versions. triomph abbreviation; ecstasy; two, three, variations; aristotle's coming-to-be passing-away, circulations, same same, enumerated same; miasmatic (azure carter) happens falters sex occur am lost miasma surfeit shapes connect dots curtailed writing practice withdrawal real sounded idiot cant youre heroin caffeine, serotonin cocaine, alcohol strychnine found outer space strange attractors hearts ghastly sadness dream drowning divided add: ahoconcise pali-english dictionary a.p. buddhadatta mahathera aho[ind.] exclamation surprise consternation. ahopts pali society's ahoindecl. [sk. ahofor etym. see aha ] surpriseastonishment consternationyeaindeedwell say! sure! vva. aho ti acchariyatthena nipto j.i acchariya abbhuta . usually combd. emphatic particlese. g. vata dha.ii pva. sdhu re d.ii pv.ii . cp. ahe. page ahopali-dictionary vipassana research institute ahooh! ah! .. know edge . draw, draw blood:: edge:: viol, violate, violation, violence, violin, viola, receptacle, chorus, chora: string, string along:: prepare flay, out, eliminate, cauterize:: through, skin:: play:: stage play, stage, viola:: gut, one's nerves, bow, stretch string:: tie knot, borromean, from:: corral, corral mobius, mobius function:: reduce variables, cauterize function, swallow, swallow again, violate:: violate violin:: out:: sorrow murmuring memory living memories object passing/passage/paysage notes, notations, language; physical others before me, and, stewardship, me. issues tending, setting-up, bringing bone, leather, bamboo, fullest, fullness slowness urgency setup neither nor there, disparate, separate, separated passed death gift, organic, organism, worlding, appearance caressing hands, mouths, arms, drawing inhabitant, habitus, closer breathing passing-on leaves well, home, inhabitant forever barred tragedy release, relinquishment, shall never hear, remain unheard, stewardship fading away, memory, prayer, supplication phrase: ------------------------------------ night twilight twilight, is, would breathing, blood formulas impediments gateway (drugs) anything goes walls catastrophies, goes, enclave market # familiars, shamans, repetitions, voices, horizonal vertical horizontal familiars cries murmurs, vertical, few familiar, poem being desolation chemistry strangers enumeration naming chaos non-being sacrifice effort sutra passing, swimming chaotic existence, imagining material welfarewell-being well killed civilian innermost spend life slave celebration joy furious incur depressing really apocalypse will ever witnessed: chora repetitive compression why time, surge absent. end, neutrinos continue oscillation, particles level universe memories, mix plateaus disappeared, witnesses longer call witnesses, argue darkness, logic, light, eye presenting? identity meantime, earlier regimes, lies fabrication memory; turn wheel event; slide lubrication creates ineffable signature. apocalypse; guarantees absence manner, witnessing images nostalgia denouement exhaustion energy bodies, horizon extinctions continues roll boil us. video essay mechanism harboring oil steam; audio foregrounding arenas sound. century wears down, along technological determinism, rust, corrosion, fatigue, radiations, dusts, entropy, fundamental, redundancy big data, databanks, seed-vaults bunkers. end; imminent, immanent, obvious all. repetition way asymptotic way, quietude emerging somewhere around planck. roiling, results motto: witnessed. gone. word operative immediate vicinity kic ; unmistakable machinery; english 'such such,' phenomena,' unique boundaries grown smaller suddenly, sure response certainly data vanish, corrode, disappear unremarkable rate told tell ourselves 'operative' star . he philosopher employ, philosophical context, term arche, until meant origin. him, became mere point perpetually give birth be. indefiniteness spatial early usages homer (indefinite sea) xenophanes ( th bc) said earth went indefinitely (to apeiron) i.e. imagination concept men. (wikipedia, anaximander) period months, wonder, remaining, tune, begin, remember, gathering open, horizons hours, murmur, formation reach above right forest lu, indefinite forst, horizons, somewhen time consciousness, moment, (always transitive), rail [list dedications] piece; involves hundreds, thousands fors, spell forgotten, definitely included, behind, resentful, grateful, stops speaking begins, ..so good idea do piece, else, gratitude friends yes, even enemies, forgotten jump bricolage ferocity over, distance humming, tibetan, society, china, chinese, buddhism, tsongkhapa, jazz, esp, backroom gardens, essay, cd production, shakuhachi restoration, television characters, flute, --- esp texts (for esp-disk website) things borne avoidance noise ,then how schedule fury ,how subtend silence thinking: exploring instrumentality ,nor ,subtended ,no joist physics ,muons (a b) (a, : | f(a, resonance ,surprising ,metallic overtones ,ringing: several slowed seemed foreign names touched illiteracy ,materials ,soundings, emptied virtuosities stringed, stringing ,perfect tautness ,resistance parallel ,tension endpoint separation duplicate ,i informing ,hypnagogic ,an tiring ,tirade ,more sounding 'some sound' mewling ,howling ,whimpering ,murmuring ,seething amazing gone ,here alone ,playing ,nylon ,skin ,metal ,plastic ,catgut ,horsehair ,wax, bamboo ,bone ,or metaphor ,wires paralleling ,the difficulty equivalence ,just ,inert obdurate ,sound inert ii learning ,evenings nights' mornings ,but respect ,coaxing ,are brought, here's ,so ,hear ,when brought ,always silence, ,enormous roiling ,slow extinction planet, ,instrument making ,them got ,he ,she you'll telling specifically know, allowing myself courtesy being-deaf, yourself fingering ,of being-sound & listing ,yayli tanbur ,ukulele ,cobza ,hasapi ,cura cumbus ,hegelung, rababa ,electric ,valveless chromatic harmonica ,parlor guitar, classical guitar ,alpine prime zither elegy ,like emptying unknown fault ,something shameful ,refusing abjection moment nail steel ,flesh ,collide ,everywhere look ,unknown iii giving ,that entry anecdote least, explanation ,as 'you owe explanation' wouldn't ,perhaps eternal ,mourning, minute slightest peaks stories failure quantum-tunneled unutterable beauty ,what arrival ,their attraction ,sounding fretless ,they teaching ,place finger exactitude fretted narrowed ,for ,a ,worlds ,over ,listening come about, sheer force slow sweep fumbles tone begins slower ,rasa savoring iv ,this savagery lack mine yours ,one ,phrase ,book text, book ,completion, suturing ,fecundity, repleteness, lathering foam planck mass ,length ,time vacuum fray ,silence quiescence, calmness piercing ,on end hole long root forth blossoms dies, gets look, misery stands bottom tongue, tongue's mouth, first, wearing skin frock, neckline pearls, hem seams:your tongue masculine root, your feminine lies, stands, tip caresses roof cool, plateau, plate world:they bottom, rooting world:among night: partying, seams, us? soiled whole death-like ah, love eaten julu-of-the-open-arms julu-depressed roof, swallowed world`s swalllow, long:my smells, smells mine, yours, world:i tongue:: long, pearls neckline, tongue`s baseness, spry [...] mouth... dressed world? you? , ah answer... julu skin? feelings, speaks sweetly, turning grrrlboyyy turniing boyyygrrrl ...the seams yours... calls love, eating, excreting memory. death-like, are... death- like, love? jennifer's seams,,, becoming, becoing melt julu's forever... darling -- abilities, try minor key, instability (hence myna bird, mimic, languages), especially third, freely quickly different episodes, go; pieces, tunes disappear, quite dance hard track fast runs neck, muscle constantly been, going? general questions course, microcosm ultimate stasis, only quick bit planet. ensues inconceivably against say, conditions: . occasioned edgespace; . interiority conserved/observed. _skill_ necessary produce, articulate, quest skill consensual boundaries, they're hacking, shortcuts, issue etiquette. situation different; edgespace, occurs _event_ collapse _procedures_ fold catastrophies verge failure. _sedimented_ sediments entangled gamebrowser crash, new, anomaly work... interiority, etiquette smooth striations, ennui, leads quests, hordings, containment semblance _carapace._ shape-riding, share-holding economics involved, rules protocols, protocol suites porous, hackable, signs, signifiers, intrinsically related exhaustion. borders universe. _gapes._ edgespace? terrors, anguish, absolute creations annihilations? temporalities, fictitious _points origin_ everywhen, everything, sliding scale _law,_ justice. justice place game, gamespace. requires luxury thought, alcove, stoa; law nomadic, settings withdrawals inscriptions fundamentally transparent... _indescribable,_ exists instantaneous, seizure, more. _here,_ begins. pappenheimer's beauties! credits let's title "pulsar bodies" floating augmented reality nearby. pulsar bodies all, crop circles mentioned magical "sound music" mention (see above) severe storm problem problematic. reserved "the exploit." added reverberation, mountains didn't part, high frequency echoing far too decay said, forest, road, pond, thicket, trees, stones, caves, wonderful echoes return "until time"; pointed happened fifteen minutes ago watching further developments. . sitting garden; says "i that's tree", pointing tree near arrives hears him: "this fellow insane. philosophy." wittgenstein, certainty dither warped cloth woven, (h)edged w/hole well- tempered instruments. but, bending strings, that, listener unsatisfied; creak pump organ pedals, shuffling skip repeated rebuilding ise shrine years, millennium, angled, cross enclosure, man outstretched tends direction; combined water sign, spruce holding moving steward- ship implied, sites rectangular, pristine, exact), weaving montfort et.al., print chr$( . +rnd( )); goto , mit, spaces, cross-stitchings, re/marking territory combination produces town. mensuration fragrance. slight changes fact building tea ceremony bowls; unravels. internalization stitched elsewise, potentials, fields, irregularity armature handicraft, journal complete guide table, . cough gasp, click keys piano bridge landscape, territory, horizon. signs axe planking, compressions , chapter regularity, account jacquard loom, mythos; threatening unraveling: pursing lips. always, sane fabric tunelessly length n, n small rarely cross-stitching, sound- stitching unraveling; often tonic, taking-up putting-down literally at-hand... shuttled repeated. tended cloth, radical , squares, cross-stitch, creaking stroke, numerous examples godey's lady's peterson's clarinet, woodwind linkages, snapped bypasses, print, handiness stitchwork, matthews: "fields, land, landed property." japanese, gratitude, in-dwelling apropos matthews' chinese-english t'ien: case sketched stitchwork young ladies sites, nails pulled retunings, returnings, stoppings startings, creek sag, cedar retains freshness magazine. gives instructions, art/labor choices made, land flooded rice. grids, equal placement frets sides his cell, plus square. huddled surrounding position resistance half-covered holes woodwinds, slurs, warp, woof, stitch, double-cross, half, bereavement dither, crossed-dither, crossed-up, crossed-out. bowed miniature rebab, wild ancient cultures, wailing towns people tongues, musics, exalted harmonies, glorifying alien gods goddesses, winged circling overhead, chthonic ravagings, no-hole shakuhachi! today, perry yung visited e-flat shakuhachi. says, flute mouthpiece coating, fingerholes. gift! spoken him earlier; wanted tube, affected, whether breathing. bought locally job lot; interiors aren't smoothed, jinashi shakuhachis. simple bindings. bamboos; wider bore warmer tone, heavier, narrower bore. make think; added, probably enlightenment get! nohole.mp surprised me; narrow listening, successful, raised floor. sed, slip, sed: " [ addr]y/string /string / replace occurrences characters string pattern corresponding string . then: doctor hacking five weeks; permanent brain fog, exhausted, dizzy, stumbling wondering onslaught terminal window, typing inertia, difficult, impossible, visuality text; write blindsighted. "the" "and" wasn't caught spell-check, caught, myself, grounds, later, unexpected substitution worries dementia, neural failure, aneurism, transient ischemic attack thwarting do. case, reading holographic universe, programming improvisation, exhaustion, chills un/natural phenomena. finished history tara tantra invention morel, began faulkner's pylon geology media. slippage, _typo_ write, sed 's/the/and/g', opened door hitherto closed. gateway, v spreading punctum displacement condensation wings (pylon), slip bell's theorem much else. displacement, "sed" operator; /the/and/ /e /e / _of duration, period, exteriority._ can't enough: path, patheme, _universal substitution,_ result operator_ might, promise space-time primordial irretrievably lost. rents boiled embroiled, inflation universe; remind otherwhen, mccarthy formalism b c, f (if p e e ) dijkstra's replacements b, generators expulsion tend selfsame gap pulling primeval propositional calculus deriding, denigrating slips splits, regarding psychoanalytical repression replacement them, processes gathered farther law, inhabiting lawlessness downfalling trajectories catastrophe noise, glitch, present, possible, multiverse wilderness models; god model (and wittgenstein's elements sheffer's stern shaky operators, rattle conceivable creation world); maw increases greater exponentiality, ackermann swellings: absence, shadowy preamble postface glancing thing, another, shadows shadows, byte geologic time: future, transcending unfathomable/fathomable destination mind: _vision utmost clarity,_ contours blurred interconnected, entanglements _every time,_ particulation ongoing enfoldings unfoldings universe: blur_ fantasy fiction fictivity, _worlding_ deepest shallowest idea, residence us: indwelling: interstice, blink eye, periphery shadow, penumbra, glance behind back, face window indicate face, tree, cathedral stone, branch leap-second suture stitch crossing clock calculation invisible dismemberment, calculations, institutions corporations reliant technologies; top stairs saw child dropping series blocks, clattering reynolds kingston, pennsylvania, ghost penumbra: therefore spelled, once, child, s-a, space, unraveling desuturing (exposing cut, tumescent surface) world's postulate sort writing, lie, present (slip galactic clusters, necessity energy, gravitons, monopoles, inflatons), leakage hydrogen-helium stars metals singular evolutions: which, thought experiment, saves knife wound slit hope: error make: error: them: own; written "and," vygotskian inner speech, writing/wryting leap-second, insertion (therefore twin operations condensation), hours many, brain's foggy, difficult things; maybe;(it : a.m.); maybe exercise "and and"" ""the" "the"" ============================================================ afghani toy/miniature rubab toy tourist ornament miniature, set seven including drones. small, high-pitched, incessant, crossing-over, range tinnitus; mp k so. string-spacing. flat shoe-polish, plastic/mother-of-pearl inlay. 'pushing onward,' repetition, deserts, rocks, oral chants. cecil taylor linux minor/major banjo using fractal/crystalline structure trajectories, loosing; banjo ; me), solos, clearest structured (since interviews self-sonic elucidation). particular possibly unique, tonk brothers, philadelphia, - online. violat grotesque, misshapen sooner better screeches doug saying pencil presses paper teeth melody thief harbinger evil stingy won't allow violent plays grotesque wear tungg thing proscribed safe rise tiny site scream sing sheaves nice, music? little response; cd, threnody, shorter discourses centrifugal centripetal forces, flight border emptiness, rush survival cold-death annihilations. reviews translate sales distribution breaking even, ending corner, children grownups flee animals yowl, wilt, mewl slumber, forms slowly wander uneasy soon gone, disks listens, returns calling . exercise. . fills wonder. slows up. . lungs strengthen. . street. . lightens. . besides . pretend things. . explore . puts 'zone.' . tinnitus forgotten. . communicate . train ear. . anything. . hands grow stronger. . quicker. . pushes . inhabit discomfort. . limit ability. . microhistories . anthropology. . myself. . dwell . neurosis recedes. . aware . am. . trained . calories creativity. . body's interiority. . later theorizing crystalline clear. . approached. . singing cannot sing). . worry else's rhythm. . trust playing. . metal, reed nylon, greet . can't. . sport at. . one. . dynamics. . movement. . reach. . become. . becoming. . sounding. . dialog . temperature, pressure, humidity . gift. . peace. . speed positive, liability. . untoward . them. . amazing. . enriched. . made. . . . good. . daemons momentarily disappear. . return. . gift love. . uncanny. . tonic . same. . inconceivable architecture. . commune . friends. . alive. . leave die. . gifts others. . production point. ' under. buddha. preparation. names. supple. "yet supple." tune. bowing desired. alpine fingers. risky gamble maverick clarinet. balance embedding cords, chords, braid sheaves. unclarity remaining. today shakuhachi, alto moving. lungs. tomorrow sazs, pipa, oud, simpler architectures lands. read forgetting. assigned limits born older singing. ignore outside mattered resonances, murmurings summed word, palmyra. no-strings no-one listens speaks, no-thing no-comments, no-community empty facebook g+ please 'like' no-string jiari swallows arising dependent revrev, shift, power grid, calculus, protocol, no-breath realize medium, hence transformation, emptiness dependent-arising, vac-kwak, inward :: jiari, modern bore, wider, modes, jinashi-jiari, qing host cou ghgh ost sick bad flu turned bacterial infection fever's away cough's furious, twists hurt inside hungry fast, red dust choke escape, looms science logic shattered, yelling, suffocated, making-sense wraiths flutter life's doors boy middle wanders he's things, closing thoughts moment's crashed descending, coughcoughgh ghghost lake stopped. trapped. started. remember. tense become, having past; happened; existing, present; (_compounded predicate, substantive, adjectives; adverbs adjectives_); joined with; purified; (_divine, animal, vegetable_); (v.); created thing; (v.; gnly. n.); being, ghost, goblin (c.); n. fact, reality, actual occurrence; welfare; (_esp. gross elements, earth, water, fire, air, ether; supposed composed dissolved_); tense, augment; creator beings; beings, spirits; aggregate community creatures; multitude beings (siva); investigation elements; believer _the doctrine that_ _is elements_); verity, condition tenderness creatures, goblin. (mod macdonnell, practical sanscrit dictionary) rove, roam, ramble finding dizziness, loss concentration, fogginess, forgetfulness, losing track, recapitulating, returning, transforming, forgetting, refinding fitting retrofitting beginnings, odd leading slower, rougher, elegiac, second exalting, faster, fastest, defocused chills, shivering, confusion, semiconscious, wanton speed, fuzziness, fugue state, repeating, braiding phrases, storehouses, compartments, abandonments, maroonings, isolation chambers, meandering, wayward stumbling, wanton, elsewhen, sheaves, somewhere, somewhen, making, good, lurching, brew brewing hasapi going wind hollowed, continued rear sound-hole, finally rain picking held had, submergence, moments tearing rending _into it_ home rain, maybe, uselessly hoping breakthrough published, concert, promotion, grant, curing gnawing throat throat, thin closure looking local cluster, amazed confluence fecundity catastrophe, annihilation cluster closer, increasing, flashes outside, storm, omaha bluejay drove providence / clarinet bluejays porch thunder storms personal ornithology enveloped admiration pleased enjoyment promised drive occurrence drift transform ladakhi fred lieberman, ethnomusicologist expert. constructed reed, tar, duct tape, architecture native american flutes wikipedia article subject). lieberman speculated historic groups. albert system c decades gave him; klezmer, gift; gotten ladakh. poorly, parallels regions national museum this. accurate recounting, years? refrigerated, tar retain shape.) ululations, protection vectors giuseppi logan, committed suicide, unutterable, intolerable, moan, materr tenug tengu occupying revert drained circumambulation figure marks pukpuk granting liseten musick reverence beign comprehend occurred againn solitary upermost reeches mynd resultz lst nevr achieved sinew torn efect machine noisesound enug fo producing swollen exact chest originate brass reedcanne animale ys find exhalatation spiryt cometh nyte lirned natural presenattation holds tight breast suckles produce canot help peer nonparallel humans lirn thick cored, tangled strands generally here; celebrated, embraced; notes there; , long- necked shut; , bass forward; rope useful suspension bridge; swallowed; time; future life; engine; engine substance; perfect; cored; down. no-purpose [:] used start limitations sea bone atom forgets purpose ends origins beginnings endings observe performed action perform stand die art absent demarcation, mark non-existent unmarked transformed pure ontology player non-existence sorted-out sorting demarcation marker brayed recorder, irish banjo, point, self loathing, disgusted soulless effrontery cares screwed what, stupid refrain (introjection projection) braid. (applause) she's dancing beautifully, combing binding medical flows, identities, vulnerabilities, immunological defenses, maintenance emphasis cohering parts, membranes molecular channels. organism emanent without. defined image apparition entity jectivity braid, apparent, genidentical, identity. organic genidentical extent. braided, contingent, contiguous. discrete knots. embraiding clearly primordial, disturbance cybermind, cock jewel, shaft braided gold. microtome, sheave-skin burrowed camera position. madhyamika, co-dependent origination, depend co-origination, image, entity, inhering true striated, variegated characterize visible project transforms emanent, habitus data-base. jennifer, continuing sheaf oh handshaking fruition? avatars considering ikonic, preconscious ('repository' syntactics, short-term metaphor) clothed, associated unconscious, unconscious necessarily splay real. 'organic' references phylum well), inhere minding, posteriori hermeneutics. embodying, background incarnation. sheave-skins react skins; feedback visual aural, proprioceptive. epistemological issue, locus. (real virtual), abandon emanent; abandoning deadly. proceed backwards irretrievable, finality bodily risk, wildly disparate. nevertheless inhabits both, qualitatively manners, depending ontology. ontologies domains, rub raw problematize decided primordial? what's mess, concerned, sheaves/braids/self- cancellation. twists, knots octahedron. plastic body-inherency, 'real' 'virtual' carried formal-measurable limits, space. cave residency during irq untitled (alan sondheim, description) irq , brown university duration conference. kathleen ottinger, carter, worked together; that. collaborations did visuals, "wrote into" other's beforehand, scripts independent work. own, textual collaboration. rehearsal in-cave in-studio.) visuals sound; conference, originated laptops room. laptop projected room; wall. physically room sixth plenty elements. words, image; room, speakers cave. projector, onto sent large speakers. capabilities conference: area life, popular online odyssey sim, capable texturing, mesh modeling, avatar behaviors. sims macgrid, experimental/research completely modifiable highly malleable landforms. in-world theater opensim laptops, each; configuration .iar file downloaded macgrid. were, often, simultaneously housed bambuser, application usb light attached; pick azure's face. channel textures modified alone, background. inverted, feedback, 'guide' normal. face/image embedded objects, intersecting ghostly, real-time, situation, songs, appeared cds lps. songs fed supercollider designed specifications, luke damrosch. suite programs called "revrev" allows musician enunciation head instead tail. combining thick, involved multiple coherent chords stemming original sound-source, fifth below tones. ran prompt, parameters changed process. times, either accompany azure, resonances; amplifier. goals acoustically balanced; revrev environment control. directly times.) feeds included main pre-recorded materials, texts. materials nyu's motion capture studio, skwarek. performers things: deliberate glitches anomalies distorted figures. mocap markers remapped representing avatar; topologically ways, broke various ways. emanation performers, embodiment techniques decade, distortions represent avant-dance, wounding, throes, hysteria, desire, pain, political issues. videos nyu (just weeks earlier) linked half-hour occurring worlds. themselves; chats image. improvised mise en scene in-world. navigate in-world; spectator, disentangle. deliberate; contents imagery, representation states crises violence u.s., africa, mid-east, on. primary special topic johannes birringer co-moderated empyre email list november, , "isis, terror, performance" torture, beheading, fear, month. , nd sandy baldwin, "pain, death," (i'm title). lab resulted bvh files real-life performer animate avatars. distortions. distortions, nyu, projected; projections in-world, viewed important interactivity with. projections, creating nude warriors charred "dancing" symbols isis terror. fairly high-speed. heard avatar's itself; projector speakers; emanating architecture, fixity resonances speaker interactions, beat frequencies, etc., play. hollowed tied to, yet images. imaged bubble, domestic; purely textual. "tuning" fascinate resonated darkness brightness affected texture readability texts, conditions changing. feedback; full, overloading screeching. lavalier mic correct parts. relates deals dancers); residency, weight adjusting equipment though (except bambuser) artists: ottinger carter alan sondheim damrosch thanks john cayley opportunity. to: skwarek, birringer, foofwa d'imobilite, kira sedlock, frances van scoy, patrick lichty, columbia college, west virginia university, inward, outward jinashi, buki , precise, visitor visitation, take distance. relax calm porous membrance substance, tangled, untangled, breath, carry dream-hall, un-dream-screen (why visual), emergent, smeared, coughed others, gathering, hakuin, something, monte levenson brilliant (levenson's yung's reconditioning) "he develops investigation-of-states factor seclusion, cessation, relinquishment." "'contemplating breathe in,' trains himself, 'contemplating out,' himself." (from anapanasata sutti, mindfulness buddhists canon commentaries, bhikkhu nanamoli, buddhist publication society) variety inconsistency. styles change abruptly; up; media audio/video/image/web/performance again; coheres. bored easily; investigate domain symbolic viewpoint messiness, messiness symbolic. codes languaging background, disseminated, dissimulated. orders leaks manageriality; smears devolves incoherency; aphasias disorders real; brute insistent protocols; sexualities, acculturations, languagings materiality idealities; idealities materiali- ties; symbolic, abstraction, geographic subjects monarchic domains. quantity distribution, infinite. commonality usage. distributivity unobtainable. praxis practice. shearing-away, habit habitus. nudge. net. common themes theme hardening attempting grasp 'otherwise.' argument totalization. code code. broken. disaster. staying come, sensate. anywhere, anywhere. conclusion? perhaps, history, rocky landscape stumbled over. works brain, presumptuous. symptomology. tropes, symptoms cross-reference, see. cross-reference. come. rebeca hurry rebecca octave fourth, resonator, old, dark, clunky tenor modules segues, interviewed, tones guises, beginning, indefinitely, interviewer, 'noodling' gary snowing snow joyce's story, weather, breathes upon reverb interrupt festival; we'll using. available realtime publicly macgrid sim localhost sims. 'above' touchstone strangest made; stages madal together), post-production shift. (future tense) _other side_ there? unexpectedness haunting mourning, lamentations, wailing, ululuations "no, trace, sleep dreams, haunting, haunched shoulders, unbearable magnetic storms, imagine is. haunting? haunting-screen, whereabouts signifying neutral expression, haunted plastered, explain. ghosts, dreams nightmares psychoanalytics recompense memory). scratched stretched nubbed tips cloak phantom, descends corrosion neurasthenia swayed rippled." anong projects plato greek plato's philosophy 'he packed pipe elaborately. once philosphy," said. "but ruined it." chuckled: "next better."' frederick kohner, gidget york, accompanied comments physicality intruments; afterwards, nails, blisters, blood. against, aural landscapes applause out; performance. erhu reasonable motu computer; travel ultrasonic well; duplicated mic. compounded tinnitus, beats/ patterns; ear-dreaming, phantom hearing, strange; above/below entirely instrument. next heart mirrored madal, here. worthy rushed, physical/musical capabilities. fill session woman cutting board. reverb; headphones curious way. indicative soundboard configurations. reacting fear interfering everything; suspiciously. annoying, strange, insistent, tonalities able end. earphones, differently, meditated echo war medea res spiritvoice granoff tonight (preformer) presentation spots, clicks, . , azurevoice altoclarinet, radio mic, dual ceiling mounted, bell, azurehands cupped alanhands keys, corner audience, damping, exquisite impossibility eternity looked relentless subzero temperatures loneliness blizzard indoors temperature suicide seeping rising sky snows grey color mathesis-poesis elementary , printed nscad williams college) exchange (dynamic process) <> scope () (+<>-)<>(-<>+) and/or ((+<>-)+)<>((-<>+}-} operator m recall r +m placed +mr +r +mm c() a+ parentheses gates types: one-way gate capacity inaccessibly two-way operated cycles. threshold devices formal neurons constructed. dot particles, anti-particles, null indicating mathematician's transformation structure. chain-negation, ~~a a, ~a ~b etc.; negation structure; binary oppositions immersive definable structures; susceptible analysis, temporally embedded; straight-forward, non-dynamic mathematico-logical analysis. above, developed topology intention, being-in-the-world partly phenomenological. mid-late s, reality. minsky bohm then. mathematically naive, false, dead-ending analysis poesis directions consciousness marxist dialectic influential shortly described technology pcms parameter units interconnected ways homes audio-visual displays, robotics, output interfaces; basically analog anywhere them; breathed. synthesizer design; earlier, late s, gregert johnson built medium-scale voltage-controlled scratch. overall together. amplifiers properties led well. fit. wrong-headed recursive understand quantum applied land's color-vision theory, "gestural logic" influences elimination aristotelian laws distribution. recently helped absolutism. lines, relativized x blackbirds defined, non-x non-blackbirds intersection non-x, set, null-set, division blackbirds. equations leaking childhood dreamed dividing / undefined infinity coupled origin, includes fanciful notations ultimately nowhere... attempted attempt ground mathesis; knowledge mathematics, roam nowhere, certain sciences anything, laughed math student. persevere perversely, wait uncertainty centering, reverb, skull, logics spectrum temporally, enjoy forever, amen "if solo year, it!" convolution damrosch; (avatar) instrument: long-necked sazzz : half-way kicks sazzz : honestly "getting somewhere" "feels good" somewhere. feels again. guess through. healing, peace, drugs, stepping-stone brillaince, although markings willy-nilly.. men women driven dream. dreaming. substance curtain vizoud oud image-music: "what oud?" self-conscious poser am, spam, worth damn, jam, skilled, ham, studied tried cram, lam, heavy sham, rock, glam, muzak tram, grating slam, quibble-dribble scam, court cham! dwelling, fluidics, software determined software, player, air humidity-dependent, direction characteristics apparatus, ambient reflective surfaces, acoustics registers chordal qualities parameters, computer, microphone pickups transducers in-determined transforms, onset, series, choate inchoate, adjustments acoustic supple entries inquiries, somatic, discovers, wellsprings discovery, subtlest attributes player's flashdance discovery mysterious ecstasy locus unimaginable rest silent wordless, formless form, soundless glass modern, table. angle table allegiance s experimentation wilder grain. exact; add buzzes creaks, tensor itself. damrosch's programming, proof apparent reversed accompanying (as interesting themselves). harmonic agni . instrumentation carter), tibetan cymbals (luke damrosch), saxophone keyboard sondheim). electronic-acoustic setup. equalization, changes, multi-speaker/channel distort temporal perception, continual enunciation. microphone, fender amp; components playing-space prevent feedback. festival march. enjoy! opening, w/varied parameters; cura, environments (currently channel) delay, perception. calming sturm und drang; sirens france, mountain stream, zen. streets ice, screams, serenity. mourn, meditate, evelyn norman weiss talk backs prayer cry aid journey revrev! verver! revreverver manifesto! action! program future! review revise reving engines cultures reviewing rehearsing rehearse productiohs revamped anterior productions whirlwind doorless transparent permeable monads verver brever esrever esiver weiver sessecorp yrotapicitna serutluc senigne gniver gnisraeher gniweiver shoitcudorp retfa esraeher roiretna erutuf eht depmaver neeb evah thgim dluow tahw ecnad erofeb noitcudorp snoitcudorp gnicudorp serutcetihcra cinos elibom tneisnart won ytinummoc esac ydaerla syawla dnuos dniwlrihw htiw denepo sdnuos sdanom elbaemrep tnerapsnart dna sselrood revreverver! wood! ny, % untuned, large-output humidifier going. suroz, gambus, luckily cracked. twelfth (unused) peg fell jumped; adjust happy, dry town (even water), low, stop crazy, resetting pegs, worrying tension, cranky bowl-backed mandolin last. meanwhile (traditional, upright), different. dry, slipping, slipping are; msoud lyrical, relief mourning produce. msoud maurice shehata maker, originally dubai. ================ reversal simulacrum reversal, follows, ensues. spatiality, temporality, emblematic, responsive, exigencies resonance, likewise, emergent property whole. eternity, anterior. headphones. (which subtle stereo). personally third editing audition. server laptop, imprudence viewer prims regions. derrida, apocalypse, (full ahead, missiles, missives), diacritics / , */record, reverse, normalize/* care signal romeo di giorgio guitar. cambridge, mass, , since. started disastrous relationship; . influenced lightning hopkins. memorized alphabetic order, a,b,c,d,e,f,g, sharps flats due order. guitars, settled gibson giorgio. cambridge al wilson (later canned heat) "city blues player" fahey charlie patton. went, stayed store clerk cried; he'd concerts, cost $ . cracks cracks. floods, closet providence, island, warehouse los angeles, tasmania. everywhere remarkable: hyperboloid wooden band extending inch back. eighteenth-century design. seen device, except current tarrega, oval hole. description company: "alan, sorry, translator. serie artistica covers pine, laterals plated jacarand, fingerboard pau ferro, arm pretty. model. manufactured artisan." swedish pine. brazilian rosewood. removed re-glue bracing repaired lutheir guitars segovia david lee roth. unusually rich response. shine apparently bows, action's low. unlike hasn't diminished age. occasion repair breathe. fourth value $ , knows? mass-produced; distinctive anyone. fragility care, survive. (electric saz, yayli tanbur, examples), standardized; needed zithers. digital phenomenologies; replacement, equivalence, imminence, modality subject. inhering, subject-like; remote, object-like. analog, "in construct raster. exaggerate complex), (like donna haraway's "companion species") forty years; computer now; reminds screen wireless, matters most, wetware "alien" branes, brains. sometimes paths debris. arrived; possession mutual relevant lives. acoustically; key stereo. tracks beowulf generates considerable electromagnetic spectrum. realistic patrolman sw- sw, vhf, uhf bands. signals hearing. machine-states exist emanents machine. glory.